Hmmmm. Feel like a bad, bad blogger - have neglected this blog over the last month; now it's not because I haven't wanted to write.... fellow bloggers will know we do this because we love to write ....but because life just simply got in my way. In fact lately it's felt like I've been in a rugby scrum and have not been able to move too quickly or at all from the weight of all the bodies on me but I won't let go of the ball!!!!
Let's remind ourselves why I blog. I want to be a Domestic Goddess - dreamed it since I was a wee nipper. To me a Domestic Goddess is someone who has a successful career, a clean and tidy house, a beautiful and mature garden, a family including pets, a competent chef in all areas of culinary delights and with it be a fit and healthy, well groomed, funky fashionista that friends and foe look up to and respect! It's a flipping tall order!!! To be able to drift from one chore to another without breaking a sweat and even doing it with a smile and looking graceful - well am far from achieving this goal!!!! So to help me I created Domestic Goddess - a blog that challenges me to get the jobs done, to learn quicker, to motivate me. We have a beautiful 1850's house but it's not quite how we'd like it; it needs painting, in and out, roof needs fixing, windows need replacing, carpets are terrible, no curtains in 2 bedrooms (lived here for nearly 2 years and one of those bedrooms is our own), birds are living in the eaves, the garden is enormous and only just starting to become manageable but so much to do and to learn and don't get my started on our orchard! I can cook - yes that I am actually very good at but it's a fail as I cannot bake YET! I do have a successful career but I moan and complain; not enough money for a job I actually enjoy, I work 2 people's jobs etc so I need to find the time to research my company idea. As for being well groomed and fit & healthy; I run 3 times a week and believe me it doesn't come easy, I am on top of fashion but I need to loose about two stone, I want to do my nails weekly, I really do but manicured beautiful nails are no companion to potting plants and digging up weeds!!! I've a lot to learn and here is my journey.
There is one thing I've not shared until now and I do this now as I am going to need to blog about this as ultimately it could be our biggest achievement. Most of you who read regularly will know how much I adore my husband and how we are one and will know of our pooch Digby, our smelly handsome goldie we both absolutely adore - my life. My entire world, as long as I have them nothing else matters. Except this one thing. We are not complete. We long for a family. We are not likely to have one naturally. We, well more correctly I, am not all in working order. We had tests galore and we started this testing two weeks before our wedding in May 2009. It has taken over a year to find out that this emotional journey is full of obstacles and we still have no progress only to know that hope is only a tiny pin prick. But it might be minuscule but it's there right? Firstly, I need an operation where for my health and well being they need to delve on into my body and tweak a few bits and pieces here and there - like fine tuning an engine I guess, except am no Ferrari I am more a clapped out old banger!!! Then, well then nothing, we wait. At 36 years old they want me to wait and see for a bit. So, our huge decision earlier this year was that we would like to adopt and the more we talked about it the more we knew that if a miracle ever came for us naturally we would still adopt another little miracle. We applied to become adoptive parents in April this year and yesterday got our first call. Our first step on this ladder that is very steep to climb. Together we are terrified, excited, scared, nervous, exhilarated, impatient and for the first time since we started optimistic. The ins and outs of our journey I will document and don't be put off, we are still us. I am still me, so true to form we do find humour in most things and this is no different so the blog posts won't be all doom and gloom that I can tell you.
I share this with you as this is another journey that challenges my dream of being a Domestic Goddess. The ups and downs. I want you with me. I want and need your support and love. xxx
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